Sunday Evenings are Sad...

Hey you

It's pretty interesting now that I think about it, no one, no one I've known in the College of the West knows of the existence of this humble little diary. Back since I enlisted in The Forces I've not told Anyone about the blog. Now that I'm embarrassed or anything (This entails another separate story about the laughable debate about my English proficiency), but I just don't see the need to advertise this semi-private space that is almost exclusively reserved for my JC mates. Sure, through the sheer powers of the logarithms of Google's programmes, many discovered my musings eventually. (Ironically they got linked through others' blogs most of the time at the mention of my name, which is quite unique :) )

Over the years I think I've became more comfortable in my own skin. Sure I'd never ever be completely satisfied, but that's human being right? And somehow I got even crazier nowadays. Of course, that's IF I'm surrounded by good friends, then I give myself the liberty to go insane around them, sometimes even towards those that I've just known. Granted, when alone thrusted into a foreign environment, I'd still be introverted and silent.

Anyway I was just wondering if I've been talking too much crap these days. It's as though everything that comes out of my mouth is garbage, you know, those of (Hopefully) great entertainment value but harbours no 'nutrition' at all. How reminiscent of a comment made years ago about me being quite 'shallow'. Just a random thought anyway, if people realised that I'm much more 'deeper' than I portray in classes/outings? HEH HEH. I'm nothing but sophisticated and worldly :D

Are we all risk-averse? In classes this week, we were taught that insurance company exists because humans are inherently risk-averse. That's true. But we also have this part of us that's daring, impulsive and probably devilish, raring to go, risk-taker. I myself have so many objectives and personal goals set that I want to achieve long ago I thought were quite risky. First thing's first, I do consider myself as pretty risk-averse, making safe choices and generaly being predictable. But I've my adventurous time. Especially since when you're different, you think different, you're born and bred differently, it is easier to want to break out of the mold. It probably doesn't make sense though, haha. Nevermind.

Oh I've a lot of things that I want to buy by the way. Although ever since holidays started in May I'm seriously over-spending. I discovered that my shoes are all over-sized and that's causing some problems for me now. And my body type is unconventional to say the least, so the clothes rarely fit well. So new track shoes, new clothes, new bag. :D

- Domon